Responsibility

I can hardly take the pressure. Life is about to start after graduation. Responsibility awaits me. I will have to choose between returning to school for my bachelor's degree or getting a job. My family is just as demanding as my personal future! What to do? I realize that I have written about this before maybe even more than once, but I'm really torn. I wish that it would be clear as day, maybe in a dream or a straight answer! What to do, what to do?

What if...

everything in life were easy? How about everything went your way? Or even if the world revolved around...ME! Unfortunately, it doesn't, nor is life easy, nor does everything go my way!! So what to do? LIVE ON, GO ON, LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!! So the things that I mentioned above are full of opportunities, to grow and learn and be challenged in many ways. This is the perspective of an optimist, which I am. I see the world as learning ground, a land that I must conquer. I know that the day will never come where I fully do this, so all the more interesting!

Friends

I have a friend with multiple sclerosis. She has been in and out of the hospital 4 times withing the last two months. Each time the doctor delivers the news that she is in her last days. She refuses to believe this!! She has a will to live. She has an 18yr old son and a 15yr old daughter. They have said their good-byes but she states firmly each time, "I'm not going anywhere". She won't allow tears in her presence. I suppose that this is to protect others from hurting, but through this I have learned the value of a friend. Friends are those that you can count on whether they are in your presence or not. A friend is one that you can tell anything and they will think no less of you, one that will accept not only your strengths but also your weaknesses too. A friend is someone who looks deep in your eyes when your hurting and makes it feel better without even a word. They can offer you encouragement even without words. I treasure friends and I hope they treasure me.